This is going to be my very first guest post.
I would like to introduce Faith Bevins. She is awesome Christian girl that has a lot of talent for writing.
I was touched by this poem that I will share with you.
It speaks the truth of this friend most of us share.
~E. ©Explorer4lyfe 2016
Here it is:
You tell me that I’m not good enough, that I’ll never say the right thing.
That I’ll hurt the people that I love, that I’ll never, ever be enough.
You tell me that nobody loves me, or sometimes that nobody cares.
You tell me that I’m helpless, too confusing, that no one will understand.
You tell me that I can’t please anyone, but that I should always try.
You tell me that fear feels good, but I’ve always known that that’s a lie.
I fight you every day, but somehow you always seem to win.
You make my head and stomach ache, and you love to make my body tremble.
I wonder how I could be so attached to something that I hate so much,
But then I remember that you taught me how to do that too.
You tell me to take everything personally,
To get attached to anyone who will take me.
You tell me when everybody leaves, that everybody hates me.
You tell me that I’m unlovable, because of everything I face.
You tell me that I’ll never make it, that my dreams won’t ever come true.
Because I’m stuck right where I am, but that’s all because of you.
You show me how to be afraid, you tell me never to take risks,
I always enjoyed adventure, until I met you, and you stole all my joy away.
You tell me that I’ll never be who I dream of being,
Because there’s just too much about me that’s wrong.
That I’ll never escape this deep, dark hole,
And that I’ll never see the light.
But today I made a choice.
I don’t want to know you anymore.
I usually love friends, but all you’ve caused me is trouble.
I normally can’t stand it, or handle it if someone leaves,
But today I know I can do without a someone such as you.
You’ve only cause me pain, and you’ve hurt people that I love.
Your name is heard around,
You’re pretty well known.
You meet a lot of people, you really aren’t that shy,
You introduce yourself in many ways, just like you did to me.
I never loved you.
I never wanted you.
But you tend to be rather rude, and you would stay even if I didn’t want you to.
But today I say goodbye,
You may come back every now and then,
But even then you’ll walk up to a door that will be shut right in your face.
Your name is one simple word,
Yet it affects so many things.
You’re called fear sometimes, sometimes it’s worry.
You’re often called anxiety.
You’re something that many people struggle with, something that many people hate.
You teach people to be slaves, but today I’m set free.
Because this guy named Jesus, He died just for me.
He loves me and He cares.
He tells me that I’m enough, and that I don’t have to try so hard.
He shows me that people do care, and that some love me almost as much as He does,
And that I don’t have to take the time to hang out with people like you,
Because to Him,
And one more thing,
So farewell anxiety, I don’t hate to see you go.
You’ve caused me pain for many years, and now I’m letting go.
I never hope to see you again, whether in my life or in another.
This time it feels good to say the word: Goodbye.
-In Christ alone, Faith
Faith Bevins is a homeschooled, 14-year-old girl who loves Jesus will all of her heart, has a passion for youth ministry and missions, and loves spending time with people, especially kids. She hopes to encourage others with her every action and word, and that God will use her to have an impact on the youth of this generation. She has a slight obsession with reading, Captain America, quotes, and food. She also loves the mountains, playing & listening to music, talking (something she’s very good at), and is an aspiring photographer.